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So, A Thing Happened Today…

I graduated with a Bachelor of Arts on 12/19/2008 at about 11AM. After the ceremony, When everyone went downstairs to receive their actual degrees, I was given a bill for $3500. For one reason or another, it took a while to make a dent in what many would consider a paltry amount. However, I was able to finally pay it off, and on 4/3/2014, I finally received my degree in the mail.

This piece of paper represents the last thing my mom ever asked of me that I could fulfill before she passed away. I don’t know what else I’ll ever do that could make her as proud of me as I hope she was when I called her after the ceremony. She’s about as far as I can allow myself to go as far as other people’s opinions. I felt a few different things today when I opened that envelope, but they were all for me. For the first time in a long time, my feelings were mine, and that felt amazing.

I’m the first of my parent’s kids to go to college, and the only person to live under that roof to finish. I’m damn proud of it, and if that has caused the rift between my family and I, then so be it. Thankfully, I have a surrogate family around me who loves me for all my shit. When I told them I got the degree in the mail, they were proud of me. When I told them in December that I made it a full day without crying my eyes out because I felt like my life was falling around me, they were happy for me. When they call or text me, it isn’t because they want something from me. I’m thankful for them being in my life.

I was strictly supposed to be talking about how I felt about getting the degree, but I honestly don’t know what it means anymore. What I do know, is I have people around me who love me, support me, and will never let me fall apart. I love them for that, and while I’m living for me, I can’t help but feel good when I make those who truly give a damn about me proud.

babybutta:

xxdavee:

nastyhalfbreed:

nowyoukno:

Now You Know more about Ben & Jerry’s! (Source)

im quiting and going to work at ben and jerrys there is one down the street…$16.00 an hour to scoop some ice cream

^ I’m saying doe!

YAY!

I’ve been finding myself feeling stuff I don’t like. Maybe it’s the job thing, or the one sided interpersonal relationships I’m in, or the fact that I’m tired of the “fake it til you make it” approach everyone thinks I should follow to get to a better place. I get extra surly about shit I shouldn’t, and feel like an idiot when I do. I always hear folks talking about the importance of having a safe space, but I honestly don’t remember the last time I had one of those. Being alone in a crowded room is so real that it cuts. It burns. It hurts. I keep this to myself often because quite honestly, I doubt anybody really cares that much, so why put myself out there for the embarrassment of folks knowing how broken I really am. I say all this so if you stumble across it and you know me, that these things that I probably haven’t said much about are somewhere in the event you actually care.

rankinqs:

I swear on everything that this isn’t just some stupid contest to gain followers. I’ve been wanting a new camera for ages so now I have two. I was thinking about returning/selling my old one, but I wouldn’t be getting the same amount or more than what it was originally priced. I’ve already talked to my mum about me giving it away, and she doesn’t mind. Anyway, who doesn’t like free stuff?
Here’s how this will work:
You do not have to follow me. I don’t want any followers that don’t actually like my blog. I do ask of you to kindly check out my blog though. If you like it cool, if not, then your loss.
Likes do not count for anything, only reblogs will count. You can reblog this as many times as you’d like.
Do not create any extra blogs or whatever, I will be looking on your archives.
Winner will be chosen like as if it were a raffle drawing.
Winner will be contacted via ask, so make sure that you have that on/open.
This will be over on March 21st 2014, and the winner will be announced on the 22nd.
I am doing this basically to make someone else happy and also because I accidentally deleted the other contest I was doing. Please don’t participate if you already own a Canon, but you can if you’d like I guess. I really don’t care if you live in Hogwarts, anyone is allowed to enter.
Here’s what the winner will get:
Canon EOS 1100D
Camera Cover R-F-3
Battery Charger LC-E10E
EUR AC Cable 1m
Battery pack LP-E10
Battery cover
Interface cable IFC-130U
All the disks needed.
The camera is basically brand new.
If you think this is “stupid” of me to do or anything of that sort, than just ignore it. It’s that simple.
Q. “Why would you just giveaway an expensive camera to a stranger?”
A. TO MAKE THEM HAPPY!
Q. “How do we know you aren’t bullshitting us?”
A. To make a fake contest just for followers is stupid, plus, I have a picture of me holding both the cameras :)
Good luck.

rankinqs:

I swear on everything that this isn’t just some stupid contest to gain followers. I’ve been wanting a new camera for ages so now I have two. I was thinking about returning/selling my old one, but I wouldn’t be getting the same amount or more than what it was originally priced. I’ve already talked to my mum about me giving it away, and she doesn’t mind. Anyway, who doesn’t like free stuff?

Here’s how this will work:

  • You do not have to follow me. I don’t want any followers that don’t actually like my blog. I do ask of you to kindly check out my blog though. If you like it cool, if not, then your loss.
  • Likes do not count for anything, only reblogs will count. You can reblog this as many times as you’d like.
  • Do not create any extra blogs or whatever, I will be looking on your archives.
  • Winner will be chosen like as if it were a raffle drawing.
  • Winner will be contacted via ask, so make sure that you have that on/open.
  • This will be over on March 21st 2014, and the winner will be announced on the 22nd.

I am doing this basically to make someone else happy and also because I accidentally deleted the other contest I was doing. Please don’t participate if you already own a Canon, but you can if you’d like I guess. I really don’t care if you live in Hogwarts, anyone is allowed to enter.

Here’s what the winner will get:

  • Canon EOS 1100D
  • Camera Cover R-F-3
  • Battery Charger LC-E10E
  • EUR AC Cable 1m
  • Battery pack LP-E10
  • Battery cover
  • Interface cable IFC-130U
  • All the disks needed.

The camera is basically brand new.

If you think this is “stupid” of me to do or anything of that sort, than just ignore it. It’s that simple.

Q. “Why would you just giveaway an expensive camera to a stranger?”

A. TO MAKE THEM HAPPY!

Q. “How do we know you aren’t bullshitting us?”

A. To make a fake contest just for followers is stupid, plus, I have a picture of me holding both the cameras :)

Good luck.

Why She’ll Never Know…

I told her I was hurting, she said to “get into the word more”

I told her I was unhappy, she said I “need to pray more”

I told her I feel unfulfilled, she told me “things will be better after you marry me”

I told her I was looking for a therapist, she said “you’ll feel better when you get a job”

I stopped talking to her, she asks why I’m quiet

I thought about walking away, she doesn’t know…

I thought about ceasing to exist, I’ll never tell her…

#LoveLetterToBW

Dear Black Women,

I know I utterly infuriate you at times. I regularly tell you the wrong things and pretty much am guaranteed to incur your wrath at least twice a month, but the fact remains that I do love you. You comfort me when I feel as though I’m not going to be able to brave the day. You support me when I dream. You don’t judge me when hearing Kermit the Frog sing Rainbow Connection makes me cry. You have allowed me to love you, and even though we may fight like cats and dogs, that love has been unconditional. I sometimes wonder if I deserve you, and I probably don’t but you’d never tell me that. I’m legitimately not good at writing these types of letters, but I should tell you that I love you all the time even when you know it. I appreciate you giving me the big piece of chicken, but you deserve it just as much, honestly. You raise our children, hold down households where so many men flake out and run away, and you put up with a lot of us perpetuating every negative stereotype about us. You’ve had to become hard, and you’ve become short with us, and for that I’m eternally sorry. I just pray that one day I can begin to repair the damage done to our relationship on our end and convince you, through action, that you can believe when I say that I love you.

Thank you for Believing in me,

Justin

witchsistah:

jhameia:

nethilia:

tinyredbird:

kevinbolk:

I…think I need a moment. 

SOB

my feels

OW

OH MY GOD

WHERE DID THAT COME FROM

AND WHAT IS THIS PAIN IN MY CHEST>

Thug tears…

This is always a rough time of year for me. Things like this turn on all kinds of water works, and remind me of the good parts of this time of year more than the things that hurt. Thank you to whoever originally posted this.

bankuei:

allanime01:

djsckatzen:

nadaatall:

kindlesong:

It’s not that Xbox One has no games, it’s that Xbox One has the inability to play games 

oh you bought our console?
yeah sorry it’s a bit buggy, it doesnt play games yet

holy hell i thought the trainwreck was over but it just got better

I THOUGHT THIS WAS A FUCKING JOKE AND SO I GOOGLED IT AND NOW I CANT STOP LAUGHING LIKE SERIOUSLY MICROSOFT SO CLOSE TO RELEASE TOO AHAHAHAHAHAHA

So we supposed to pay $500 for a machine that needs a fix to play the damn games?
I foresee some lawsuits coming along because unless that package says it NEEDS internet to work…

I saw the same shit about the PS4. I feel these new consoles are gonna have a lot of weird ass bugs popping up with both of them, and the fanboys are gonna lose their shit. It’ll be beautiful.

bankuei:

allanime01:

djsckatzen:

nadaatall:

kindlesong:

It’s not that Xbox One has no games, it’s that Xbox One has the inability to play games 

oh you bought our console?

yeah sorry it’s a bit buggy, it doesnt play games yet

holy hell i thought the trainwreck was over but it just got better

I THOUGHT THIS WAS A FUCKING JOKE AND SO I GOOGLED IT AND NOW I CANT STOP LAUGHING LIKE SERIOUSLY MICROSOFT SO CLOSE TO RELEASE TOO AHAHAHAHAHAHA

So we supposed to pay $500 for a machine that needs a fix to play the damn games?

I foresee some lawsuits coming along because unless that package says it NEEDS internet to work…

I saw the same shit about the PS4. I feel these new consoles are gonna have a lot of weird ass bugs popping up with both of them, and the fanboys are gonna lose their shit. It’ll be beautiful.

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!